April 6th, 2006
AH! @ 09:23 pm
Current Music: just one of those dayssss that a girl goes through...
Today, I went to a job fair in Cortland. I signed up for about 5 interviews, and on my first interview I GOT OFFERED A JOB! WHAT! this guy pulls out a contract and says " From this interview I can tell that you are the candidate I am interested in, You are very knowledgable about Special Education and that makes me comfortable enough to give you this job" he then continued with my shock by saying "by signing this you are binding yourself to a job this fall." I was SOOO shocked, that was absolutely crazy.. really crazy... I also stuttered alot on that interview so I was totoally shocked. I told the guy that I wanted to first visit the district before I signed anything, he said that that was fine. ( I wonder if they will fly me down for a look, and pay for a hotel) HMmMMM.. absolute CRAZINESS, and those of you who remember.. it was in florida.. my all time high school dream.. ah.. okay, so I had a few more interviews today all of them went very well, and I was asked to fill out a second application, which is nice.. its kind of weird, applying for jobs.
Other than that, ESM is going great, I feel really great there and I love their Special Ed program, my teacher is awesome and funny, and I really enjoy going in there everyday. I think maybe I hated teaching because of the bitchy teacher, but I know that it is a possibility, although I want to eventually go into Social Work, money would be nice for a little bit..
Alrite, back to my applications......... whoo
March 31st, 2006
. Put your MP3 player on random.
2. Post the first line from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
3. Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
4. Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
5. Blanks indicate the song title
Goodnight, Sometimes things get bad, but i swear I'm doing all I can, so cry all you want to, I'm gonna try to------------------------------- Maybe we can be happy again... 2. Baby can't you see, I'm calling, A guy like you should wear a warning, it's dangerous, I'm falling, theres no escape Ican't wait, I need a hit baby gimme it, It's dangerous I'm loving it.. 3. I walked around my good intentions and found that there were none, I blame my father for the wasted years, we hardly talk, never thought I would forget this hate, when a phone call made me realize I'm wrong.. 4. We get it on most every night, when that moon is big and bright, its a supernatural delight, everybodys --------------------------, everybody here is out of sight, they don't bite and they don't bark.. 5. She was driving last friday on the way to cincinatti on a snow white christmas eve, going home to see her momma and her daddy with the baby in the back seat, 50 miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline, it'd been a long hard year.. 6. -----------, my love has come along, my lonely days are over and life is like a song, ooh yayaa, --------, the skys above are blue, my heart was wrapped up in clovers, the night i looked at you.. etta JAMES 7. its as simple as something and nobody knows it, her eyes are as big as her --------------, on the feet of a queen of the hearts of the cards, and her feet are all covered with tarballs and stars....
8. go away from my window, leave at your own chosen speed, i'm not the one you want babe, i'm not the one you need, say you're looking for someone, say you're looking for someone whose never weak but always strong..
9. one, two, three... turn it up... big wheel keep on turning, carrying home to see my kin, singing songs about the southland, i miss our family once again and i think it's a sin...
10. she's got the kind of look that defys gravity, shes the greatest cook and she's fat free.... she's been to private school and she speaks perfect french, she has the perfect friends.. isn't she cool..
11. yes... so crazy right now.. most incredibly, it's your girl b, it's your boy young.. you ready... OoOoOoO, oOooO, i'm gonnna... history in the making part two so crazy right now.. i like to stare so deepy into your eyes..
It's Close To Midnight And Something Evil's Lurking In The Dark,
Under The Moonlight You See A Sight That Almost Stops Your Heart
You Try To Scream But Terror Takes The Sound Before You Make It,
You Start To Freeze As Horror Looks You Right Between The Eyes,
13. What's the time? well it's gotta be close to midnight my body's talking to me and says time for danger it says i wanna commit a crime i wanna be the cause of a fight, wanna wear a tight skirt and flirt with a stranger...
14. everybody knows where you go when the sun goes down.. i think you only live to see the lights of time, i wasted my time when i would try try try, cause when the lights have lost a glow you will ----, ---, ----...
15. hey -----, when you get the blues.. come on -----, get a rock and roll feeling in your bones, -------, when you get the blues...
if i leave here tomorrow, would you still remember me, for i must be traveling onward, yeah theres to many places i've got to see, if i stay here with you girl, things just couldn't be the same.. 17. ah ah, --------------------, hey hey hey, threw some cords together the combination d, e, a, it's who i am it's what i do, now whose gonna lay it down for you? i tryed to focus my attention but i feel so add, i need some help some inspiration (but it's not coming easily)...
18. chill light on my sight as my ego becomes a funky child with some words on my tongue, be like intake of breath and my mouth gets loose while i scatter my spit, i dream of juice..
19. won't you sing me the blues, won't you sing me the blues, sing me something my heart can use.. misery loves company, does your face, you're pretty face get lost in a crowd, and you say no one's there, to hear you cry out loud.. what will you do, ---------- ?
20. you make me want to throw my pager out the window, tell mci to cut the phone polls, break my lease so i can move, cause you a -----------, a --------, put you're number on the call block, have aol make my e-mail stop, cause you a -----------, you --------- what, you ------- who, you -------- me and it ain't cool...
March 14th, 2006
yes the bitch is gone
Thank GOD that i am done, my teacher is a fucking bitch, seriously evil and horrible. She is all the thigns I never want to be, EVER!!! Today i gave her like a thankyou gift (a $25 gift card to bone fish grill) she didnt' even say thankyou, and left before even saying goodbye. Stupid cunT! AH, atleast I'm almost done with that bitch, just gotta rile a referance out of her. DAMN BITCH!
Current Music: beyonce- baby boi-
today is my last day at Lyncourt. My last day with the mega bitch, as drop dead fred would say. I'm really excited that I'm half way over with this student teaching gig, really excited. I am gonna miss my kids tho and my Teachers Assistant. It's weird you go someplace everyday for 7 weeks and then you're just gone. I wonder if the people in the building will miss me, or even remember me in a few weeks...
Yesterday, we had a creepy Teachers Assistant substitute, who would not stop hitting on me. I really wanted to get away from him so I went to grade during lunch, but he followed me and would not leave me alone. He also slipped me his number, and kept saying call, call. Then at the end of the day to try to make me feel bad he said "I bet you're not gonna call", I'm just like I dont know. But oh well, he was creepy and called Mr. O.
I really love that it is becoming spring, I love it so much that I wore flip flops the last three days. I also have begun to love running again, it's so nice to make your pace keep it and then keep on going. I signed up for the 5k race for breast cancer, I know its short, but I'm hoping to get my speed up so I can finish it in less than 25 minutes. RIght now I can do a 5K in about 28, so we'll see..
Me and Jeff's plan did not work = ( Everything is just so messed up in that situation, Everything. It's really sad and hard, but I don't know what to do..
Alrite, my shower is calling
Love to all
February 4th, 2006
Current Music: lynard skynard- free bird
alrite so i have just finished week 3 of student teaching, i must say I still do not like it. but there are only 22 days left in which i will give a dbq, teach the great depression, give a test on the gd, teach the foundations of government, and hopefully remain sane. I have found two wonderful things within school the first is the resource room, which is amazing you can gain so much more from the kids there and you form a better and a more personal relationship, the second thing is the company. I love talking to the TA who is in my class, I also love talking to almost anyone there except the teacher I am student teaching with. She is absolutely DREADFUL!!! but, everyone else is so nice, especially the librarian, the 8th grade english teacher, and the resource teacher. They make my days alrite.
Well other than studetn teaching, I attended 100 days till graduation (just like henninger, as jeff reminded me) except not as fun because you did not where costumes, but got absolutely drop dead gorgeous with beautiful hair, dress, fab shoes, and fab make-up. Which was nice, I love dressing up.. I want to have or go to a fancy cocktail party, and chatter everything up.
On another note, We (me, nora, and who ever else we want) are going to Puerto Rico for 4 days either the week before graduation or the week after, which should be amazing. The historic district in San Juan looks amazing. On that note I need to get a pass port so I can travel outside of the U.S. that is my goal because Puerto Rico will be great, but its no Europe, Africa, Asia, Latin America, or Australia.
ALrite Journal, c'est la vie.
January 25th, 2006
I HATE STUDENT TEACHING! i hate teaching, i really do. I just want to work with disabled kids and adults somehow. i really hate teaching all the work that goes along with it, i wish someone would save me.. it will be hell for the next 3 months.. HELL.. gosh i hate student teaching.
January 11th, 2006
Current Music: beagle
santa provided by bunnyhero labs
AH! i'm getting so nervous for student teaching! so nervous, but excited. I know i shouldnt be, but i am. and i don't know what to do. Wat if i'm bad? What if i dont like it? Oh well, if i dont i'll do something else i guess.. AH! craziness
January 2nd, 2006
Current Music: Carrie Underwood- Jesus take the Wheel
HAPPY 2006! Its been a great year, i hope not to fulfill that resolution above, and just basically figure out what i want to do in the next few years of my life, run more, and not build up credit card debt! Those are my goals/ resolutions. I hope everyone a good new year with lots of love and laughter.
BY THE WAY! go see King Kong. I really liked it, it made me cry tho, but it was delicously good! Plus, i loved seeing everyone, it was def FUN!
December 6th, 2005
Current Music: carrie underwood- jesus take the wheel
I thought you should all know that..
I've decided that I really really like country and i have begun to download lots of rascall flats, and carrie underwood. I already have martinas greatest hits. If you listen to the stories within the songs, they are just amazing, like Skin- Rascal Flats its so sad and I love it, such good words.
I thought I would never love that country, but i would love tons of cds that are all kinds of country. wHoO
Today, is Tuesday, exactly two days of classes, one day at ESM, one day at Lyncourt, and two finals and i am done! then student teaching.
I have began to become very nervous about doing this, i hope it all works out, but if it doesn't I guess I'm destined to help in other ways, which i plan on doing anyways.. all this in a thing we call life.
Life really is just living, and enjoying, and helping, and doing what you want to make a difference, i love seeing people smile, and watching people get something and ask questions and want, thats the best part. learning yourself and learning it forever.........
Measure in Love.....
I can't wait to help people really I can't wait, I really want to.. i love being that wierd, i love it.. i love people...
I also cannot wait for the beach, being part of a church community, decorating my own house for christmas, reading to my kids, and just being grown up.. i love and hate this middle ground, cause i can still be young and do the crazy young things, but i want so much more now. change is amazing. change is what makes me.